somehow I found this photo inspirational…
look at her face and how it speaks about how hard she’s trying. which honestly makes me question myself, when was the last time I had pushed myself that hard (until it hurt)?
perhaps it’s time I tightened my shoes and test my limits, because next year’s my last year of achieving just about anything in this arena that I’ve thrown myself into and it’s time I did myself proud.
‘as much as I’d hate to disturb you…’
‘yeah I know, I’ll leave right after this (and don’t worry I won’t ever come back)’
my guy best friend is the best because he’s simply awesome and he’s always here to make me laugh like a cow and make me feel better :>
my girl best friend is also the best because she’s kickass and she makes me smile for the smallest of reasons ❤
my best group of friends are the best because they're always encouraging funny and they always move me and make my days :')
thank god for all of them ❤
been a rather depressing week i would say. and the best part is that the examination results are not yet out.
i used to be happy
i used to smile almost as much as i breathed
i used to laugh even when no one was watching
i used to be optimistic because i believed there was always reason to be
i used to try to be everything i wanted to be.
i used to hold myself up.
but now i’m tired
i’m tired of trying to be good
i’m tired of trying to be optimistic
i’m tired of smiling
i’m tired of wanting to believe
i’m tired of explaining myself
i’m tired of holding up this weight.
i’m sick and tired, i really am.
so call me whatever you want
say whatever you want to say
that WAS me,
this is me NOW and i’m never going back.
i’ve grown numb.
i used to be me.